Series of Attempts #1: I love you forever is murder by amy etherington (2nd Edition)

"Perhaps in transness then, we can only fall through the lines of a fantasy, dead where death is impossible, lost where loss is impossible, living where living is impossible."

In this work of trans pessimism, amy etherington asks what love means in a world that wants you dead. Speaking to a structural, architectural violence, I love you forever is murder is a pertinent examination of how the murderous conditions that trans women come out into permeate their relationships with those who claim to love them. Part break-up text, part whispering, pricking, ghostly presence-from-beyond-the-grave, etherington calls upon Lacan through Edelman, Freud, Derrida, and the voices of friends, writing with an aching warmth and confessional intimacy that seeks to live, write, go on, after your own passing.

On I love you forever is murder, Biogal says: “To read this essay anew in a body — changed — is to embrace the friction of its persistent & impossible truth. She sits stubborn on the tip of our tongue, still alive & deliciously spiteful.”

About the author:
amy is a designer, writer, musician and educator, whose practice lives beneath the broad umbrella of elsewhere press. Through elsewhere she explores the joint possibilities of transfeminist publishing and a political graphic design research practice, resulting in print publications, performance and brutal slamming death metal.

Edited, designed and published by Sticky Fingers Publishing
Cover printed by PageMasters
138x210mm, 40pp